Cracksleep (2018)

RESET
Days of emptiness.. I ain’t got nothing inside
Disease is permanent… I bow towards the light
As the dusk rolls in, I feel petrified
And in other words I need some peace of mind…
It’s hard to carry on. The road is so narrow and
What am I struggling for?…
THEY THINK I’M STRONG. THEY THINK I’M BRAVE
BUT I’M A SOUL WHO IS PEACLESS IN THE NIGHT
THEY THINK I SLEEP. THEY THINK I REST
BUT I ONLY NEED TO BE RESET…
Got to roll with this.. Got to face reality
Nothing ever changed nor gonna change no more
When the fading light, slightly turns its side
And the dark mood starts invading my mind..
The world’s falling down
The mist is surrounding me
And I enjoy living alone…

DEEP FROST
Every time that I touch your hand
I feel the biggest of shivers
All of the shame and the shyness fade out
I feel like I am the biggest…
Lost in this valley of dark blue tears
Seems there is no kind of escape
All that I need is a new kind of life
All that I want is beginning…
Fireballs flaming in front of my eyes
Blinding me killing me making me fall
How could I face this new trial and fight
How could you do this again…
DEEP FROST… ALL I SEE INTO YOUR EYES
NO WAY OUT, NO SURPRISE
LIKE A BORROWED LIFE
Every time that I close my eyes
Searching for some kind of sleeping
But I wake up in the middle of the night
It’s getting more and more frustrating…
Fireballs flaming in front of my eyes
Blinding me killing me making me fall
How could I face this new trial and fight
How could you do this again…

ABERRATION OF NATURE
No will, no words, it’s like a blackout of memory
A sense a frustration growing inside…
I am, in deep and totally unable to sleep
Running fast away but hardly I can hide…
I see my face in the mirror
An unexpressive dummy
They all want me to
Be as kind as you
It’s impossible
To stay alive!
AL I NEED IS JUST TO FALL ASLEEP…
AND STICK OUT OF THIS
ABERRATION OF NATURE…
No rest, no dreams… My life is harder than it seems
Been struck so hard from Mother Nature…
And if I sleep… It’s something that I’d like to keep
I’d like to dream of something I never had…
I see my face in the mirror
An unexpressive dummy
They all want me to
Be as kind as you
It’s impossible
To stay alive!

MY BREATH
From the very first time, when I felt you here inside
I discovered that my life would never be the same
Without your love
When I see you smile, my eyes smile with you
And then I realize that all that counts so far
Is to see you healthy and happy too…
When you smile, I stop breathing for a while…
In the night when you’re by my side
I pass my time always staring at you
In the night when you’re by my side
I’m thanking God for having you…
YOU ARE MY LIFE, YOU’RE MY SPECIAL CREATURE
YOU ARE MY LIFE, CAN’T FALL ASLEEP WITHOUT
BREATHING YOU
You make me feel alive. I like the innocence of your eyes
Day by day my love for you is growing up
No words could explain how strong…
When you smile, I stop breathing for a while…

SILENT CORNER
I close my eyes, I see your face
And try to stick my head outta this
I feel so wise, but it ain’t true
Trying so hard of not thinking ‘bout you…
Hoping a day will come for you to be
To become part of me…
But now this dream is nearly impossible
Your heart don’t belong to me…
ONLY A KISS WILL PROBABLY CLEAR MY THOUGHTS
I PROMISE YOU
ONLY A SMILE WILL PROBABLY GIVE ME HOPE
TO NEVER LET YOU GO..
I SEE YOU… I’M A STATUE
I socialize with many friends
But all I am is an empty space
Your glacial eyes that paralyze
And brush away any kind of defense…

AS THE NIGHT CRAWLS IN
Alone, every night I fall asleep
Alone, I’m getting old
I’ve been told, that everything will go
I don’t know anymore, the right from wrong..
Now I, remember when you were
By my side, I had another view of all..
For too long, I kept my fears inside
But I’m strong, and face my ghosts
For too long this insomnia has been killing me
I hope to see the end and carry on..
AS THE NIGHT CRAWLS IN
WITH YOU NEXT TO MY BODY
WILL ALMOST SLEEP AGAIN..
WHEN IT’S DARK WITHIN
WITH YOU NEXT TO MY BODY
WILL ALMOST SLEEP AGAIN..

VOICES CALLING
Sometimes I do Remember. Sometimes I realize
That a life full of anger, is gonna drive me wild
I’m always kind with people. I give eternal smiles
I gave out all my efforts, feel like an empty jar..
THE VOICES ARE LOUD AND CALLING ME NOW
THEY’RE ASKING ME TO FOLLOW
THE VOICES ARE CALLING OUT MY NAME LOUD
BUT I FEEL SO HOLLOW
My eyes are still wide open. My mouth will never smile
My head will keep on spinning. My tongue is so damn dry
Confusion is my living. I run a messy life
Will stop this time of giving, and get rid of this page…

STARING AT THE CEILING
I hate this damn feeling of me here staring at the ceiling
I hope I will survive ‘cause I’d like to feel alive
These worries I’m living is giving me stress that’s never ending
Sometimes I’d need to cry but without knowing why…
The last thing I remember
Was me in bed alone in love with the remote control
I need to sleep for feeling better
And if it happens I would like to sleep forever…
THERE WE GO… I CAN’T SLEEP NO MORE
THERE WE GO… WHAT CAN I DO?
The morning looks so far, that I get tired before I get up
Sometimes I look alright but it’s not exactly right
Short dreaming of a being who fell in love with the ceiling
Sometimes I jump in bed then wishing to be dead..
The last thing I remember
Was me in bed alone in love with the remote control
I need to sleep for feeling better
And if it happens I would like to sleep forever…
THERE WE GO… I CAN’T SLEEP NO MORE
THERE WE GO… WHAT CAN I DO?

NIGHT FEELINGS
I fed my soul with lots of energy
I held a shelter for the lies
Playing with the heads of all my enemies
Never backing down from the line…
Stone cold water is falling over me
But I feel frozen from inside
The eyes of fate are staring straight to me
Guess that I gotta face the light…
Remembering when the sun
was shining hard on me…
and everything was clearer…
WHEN THE DARKNESS OF THE CLOUDS WILL SET A VEIL ON ME
DARKENING EVERYTHING THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH ME
I CAN SEE IT I CAN FEEL THE NIGHT…
Smiling faces every time I cry
Walking with the evil by my side
Dangerous people always next to me
But I woke up in time this time…
It feels like the end is near
It feels like my life has been
full of people that have given me more pain than love
And the day is growing near that I’ll take my revenge!

HIDDEN FRIEND
Even though I close my eyes
and try to cancel this feeling of
Bitter taste and dry tongue…
I know I gotta stand my ground,
and keep my mind away from you,
From everything that reminds me of …
YOU… EVERY TIME I PUT A GLANCE UPON YOU
YOU… I TRY TO TURN THE PAGE AND MOVE ON
YOU… YOU GOT YOUR LIFE AND I AIN’T GOT NOTHING
YOU… THE ONLY THING IS TO BE FRIENDS
All I know is that I just can’t stop, thinking of
If you would have been here with me…
But I gotta clear you, from my mind,
you can’t be mine, by my side
Nothing more than just a…